you have to go this way till the end

I brought this notebook to church so I could write down my amazing incredible thoughts.
But my grandma kept asking me what I was writing, and I told her a list.
then she asked me what kind of list. JUST A LIST!
I get sooo annoyed.
OH and a dickfacebastard tried to run me over with his motherfuckerTRUCK this morning!
Sometimes I get so mad at other drivers i want to chase them and catch them and FIST FIGHT THEM!

in church I am surrounded by old lady walkers.
I am scared to get all old and have my body fall apart.
that is scary.
and to watch everyone around me DIE!
I don't feel like I wanna live past lets say 70.
thats enough.
I wanna die before everyone.
I wanna die before my brain and body.