every bubble bursts

This photo is not one I enjoy sharing but I am in a bubble and therefore I share.
The angle is all wrong so I don't like it and my mouth looks enormous but I am in a bubble so its hard not to smile hard.
plus Santa was watching me close that day.
That step thing I was standing on was VERY slippery. one wrong move and i could have lost it.
the crowd of people would have loved that.
I wont sit here and continue to nitpick.
Thanksgiving 2009 was a success.
some of the items enjoyed:
20 lbs Turkey
Mashed Potatoes
Potatoes au Gratin w/ BACON!
cornbread stuffing
green bean casso
candied yams
whole berry cranberry sauce
deviled eggs
apple pie
pumpkin cookies
other stuff
made the entire dinner myself.
OUr lights are up and our Christmas tree has been trimmed. or what have you.
Gramma believes it to be too early. Why? I don't know.
On a sad note I have been a tinsy bit sick.
nothing to really hold me down.
but then again nothing usually does.
showertime now and then its on to the leftovers.

PLEASURE CRUISE

I hate signing in.
Waste of time, and fuck that.
BUT yes I still signed on and in.
what was I gonna say?
oh uh ROASTED CHICKEN FOR DINNER! and an award ceremony going on.
I would rather go to IHOP but I will keep that trip in my pocket for another lifetime.
good times.
oh yeah THE other night I told a strange lady I could no longer allow myself to be tortured by her long winded refinancing story and house foreclosure paperwork stress-talk ANY fuCking more,
and she did not even GET it, she laughed and went something like this: AHahahahahahaa mmmhmm yeah I know I am totally annoying and up in your face but i really like you and want you to hear this information.
can you believe that?!
WEll sorry,
that is a very inaccurate version of the truth but you get the point and you understand and MAYBE just fucking mayBe you have heard this story already or have been somewhere and seen the scene and you know about it.
Everyone else at the table was just going to sit there and LET it happen.
LET this annoying hag go on and fucking on about her stupid and pathetic story. it sucked. I hit my limit of being polite with her. she was feeding off it. I could tell it was getting her all revved up for more of my listening, and no. Not happening,
I dont feel that I should OR YOU should be forced to listen to bullshit from people who don't matter for over 5 minutes.
3-5min is acceptable.
If you matter to me then SURE by all means bring to me your sad sad long boring shit of a story.
I will listen. I will be your good friend
but if you suck and I dont like you please just sit there and listen to what I have to say.
I am amazing and my story is incredible.

the respect I made you earn

i have been searching for things. this certain hair glaze stuff for my lovely shade of red to stay VIBRANT and new BUT of course you know I cant find it. I found brown and blonde and clear but no red. thats WEIRD!
so whatelse? went to target with SARA and I found some really great sleeppy and sweep the house pants BUT ALAS they were 10 bones so GUESS WHAT KIDS? yep I hid them in a gift bag in the gift wrapping lane
I am confident that they will remain there FOR months and months until the ONE day I will be able to rush in there and BUY THEM! WOOO HE! no. I will forget. who even cares about awesome pants? I have so many already.
this post is SO USELESS! except the picture above is cute and fun and I am sure I was saying something very very funny. YOu can tell this is a FACT by the way Ree is leaning away from me.
I was really treated like shit by a waitress that day.
it was the day after my birthday that now feel like ten thousand years ago.
TIME IS FLying by! AHHh merry christmas!
no no
it s not.

full of knots.

All the weirdo neighborhood kiddies end up in my yard.
TO be honest I dont really know how to deal wth these children and so therefore I wish they would go play and yell and be dumb else where or be normal.
Really that is asking a lot and I guess I would rather have them here instead of in their sad, boring, lifeless, fucked up, dirty homes. I dont know if that is true but I imagine.
My home is still kinda A mess with left over HALLLOWEEN decor here and there scattered about. so I should be ashamed.
but its fine ok dont worry
I will have it done so soon, you will be like WHERze DIDz tHATZ shitz goez?!
I will be like YEAH and yep.
put away,
in bins. YO
fools.
I just waannna be at the gym tomorrow feeling good, looking around and thinkin about the days of our lives.
Is that soap stiill on?
We have some xmas tree shaped brownie cakes up in this joint and I am LIKE huh? serious?
I need to fill my glass up.
I have no money.

thought it was a plus but it was a minus

Yesterday was a full moon, my b-day and a total full-scale karmic experience.
what can be done to stop it?
Very noticeable and very natural.
So much more going on with everything and everyone
too complicated and dumb for my head or yours to fathom or work out.
but yeah what the hell? thanks?
But hey you can rest better knowing that my halloween party decorations are obviously way better than any your friends placed on their chandeliers and hallways.
maybe decorations aren't everything.
Stupid me misplaced my camera so I did not take as many pics as i wish.
too busy running around getting in trouble and looking silly I guess.
whatever next year i will be better prepared or I wont give a damn.
Of course next year will be different for all of us in many ways just as this year was different than last blahblah what HAVE you.

spooky

Halloween time is in your face.
my birthday is soon and I will be 30.
i meant to get to the store for some fucking green TEA today BUT did i go??
the answer is no. too bad.
in the morning i will hurry up and go grab what I need, it'll be fun.
ooooo yay! i have some pumpkin pancake mix!
that HAS to be made in the morning, such a good thing i just reminded myself cause I hate when I forget those tiny details.
i need a few other things from the store too like a red onion, orange icing, little tiny cups, some peach schnapps and other items.
ok i might go after 11:30.
Everyone should sleep till at least eight thirty or nine on
Saturdays.

SEE THROUGH YOUR HEAD

ok. concentrate. focus and breath.
my gramma is messing with her hearing aid and its whistling loudly.
being old is juts not cool dude. dont let it happen to you.
and dont cheat on tests.
life is full of tests. such crap.
ANYWAYS I did kick boxing today for the 1st in awhile because of reasons I cant control and thats not FAIR!
but what was the point?. OH YES FUN! it was HELLA KICK ASS FUN today in that class and I felt great.
I wore my owl thermal today. I like that top.
FAVORITE TOP TALK.
IT IS ALWAYS SOMETHING with people.
always
oh my friends think you have bad bodyodor or oh wow I ate too much burrito today
oh thanks you called me fat
oh look my dog is out of kibble oh my mom is a moron oh that bird looks like an asshole oh btw you have stupid looking ears
oh that ceramic elephant is talking to me about the economy OH HEY I LIKE to eat chemicals oh yeah YOU smoke too much dirt weed oh yes I look like a maniac in public I am about to go mental all over this aisle of jellies and jams and nutella and fucking peanut butters and honey and other spreads!
I WILL. and bread is dumb today. I am sorry you cant take the honesty and reality of the world.
I helped out and sold some BOO grams at the school today and I wore the SPOOKIEST EARRING ever!
the kids were ALL BLOWN AWAY by my coolness.
they are my grammas.
one day they will be mine.

drink some juice.

go bold or go home

I am so tired of this background this b-log has going on here.
enough already with that shit.
I will figure it out for us.
ONE THING AT A TIME.
most of the time.
YOu should have seen me at the dentist yesterday!
such bravery on my part.
really it was nothing.
I did have a cavity and that is VERY embarrassing
and I had to have some other problem dealt with
and my teeth polished.
SO ISNT THAT NICE FOR ME!!
I CAN CHEW ON BOTH SIDES OF MY MOUTH LIKE YOU DO!
YAY!
its a gorgeous day and I am thankful for the gloriousness that is TODAY and all the days of my life.
THANNK YOU!
and I like regular toothpaste.
normal toothpaste. no sparkly bs glitter toothpaste.
just the light blue toothpaste.
thats ALL I NEED.
and love.
i may post again real soon because I feel like and you like it.

BOO BERRY

Today is an exciting day.
FOR ONE a trip to the dentist is happening later.
WICKED COOL.
other awesome stuff is gonna happen I JUST KNOW IT!
ALready received a package of paper and stickers on my doorstep this morning &
that was RAD.
SO its all happening for us.
all coming together.
what else was I gonna say? I know i was thinking how I could blog something or the other!
but thats the endless story of blogging now isnt it
at least for me it is.
BECAUSE I HAVE A THIS BRAIN OF MINE.
little kids are funny. one kid (not mine) told me how he has all these voices in his brain telling him what to do
and it turns out tooo complicated so he ends up in troube and YOU ALL KNOW THE STORY!
we can all relate to this 7 yr old kid.
heard it amillion times.
ANYWAYS I would like to say that I am super excited for HALLOWEEN and MY BIRTHDAY and I think thats it
for now.
hang in there and lets pray for each other.
iTS the OnLy Way!
and dont be mean to others unless they deserve it. i guess.

IMAGINE ALL THE PEOPLE TRYING TO SURVIVE

GOSH ya know I really need to brush my hair today. I have yet to do SO.
I had to do this walk to school bus thing today and it was reallyway early in the morning.
like before the SUN early
so I was late and had to run to catch up.
When we all arrived to the school they had some quaker oatmeal bars and bananas cut in half.
I had half a banana.
I was really expecting muffins BUT I did NOT want a muffin so I was happy when I was bananas.
we ride our bike to school everyday anywasy UNLESS its raining or freezing out and
we leave at 7 thirty and arrive ten minutes later.
I did get the chance to introduce myself and complain to the principal about some issues I have about an ugly broken fence in the middle of the playground.
it is a fucking hazard.
I will not let up about it. I may take some photos.
you dont know it but you should know that I just now brushed my hair.
and its John Lennons birthday today! is it your birthday?
how should we celebrate?
more pie?
banana cream pie?
I like banana cream.
ANY PIE IS A PIE I LIKE.
I could never hate any pie.
NEVER COULD I!