and maybe my heart is beating a little irregualr?

oh my dear friend my shit is fucked up so to speak and I am sorry I dont live up to my own standards.
or yours. so to speak.
I am afraid of all the natural disasters ahead and
all these disasters swirling around me.
I AM living in fear.
so to speak.
but i should try harder to make everyone happy.
I would like to make everyone happy.
the bottom line is my stomach has been killing me becos of whatever and no one gets that or ME.
so you just fuck off cos you are only pretending to be my true friend.
but I still cant get enough. so give me more.
wink wink
blink blink
and happy mothers day.