I feel like my life is one big movie.
If only I could explain.

It is lightening and thundering.
I love it.
It makes me feel alive and aware.
When I feeel the storm start to fade so do I.

I was hoping the poweer would shut off.
It flickered a few times so I started to panic.
My heart raced and I ran around looking for light sources.
I could not find my large black flashlight.
I swear I almost started to cry the fear was so powerful.
Silly.
But very exciting and ALIVE.
Rather than dull and dead.
No tank you.
I am not down with the dull and the dead.
SO I lit some candles
But unfortunatly there was no power outages.

But I stood outfront for awhile, getting all wet cause it was raining.
And I turned and got a view of my house and I swear I thought I was in a old west scene or some shit in a movie.
And I was like the lady in the movie.
My movie.
My crazy fucked up movie.
But why old west?
I mean I realize it is 2005.
But this IS fucking old west compared to what is to be.
Maybe i just watch to many movies?
Maybe I should be an actress?
I would say that I thought old west cause of the lighting of the candles, but I did that AFTER standing outside.
It was a time warp!@
I experienced some sort of time travel parrraalllel universe thing.
It is too complicated to explain.
So I won't even try.