live life forward

so this is Christmas.
i poured WAY WAY too MUCH brandy in my egg nog. oh weells. I dont know how in the world I ever drank that stuff straight up.
hope everyone out there is having a happy holiday. I am.
stocking stuffers are my favorite part. with toothbrushes.
and the baking of the cookies.
We made cookies on Saturday! TONS of coookies! sugar, choc chip, and PEANUT BUTTER!
they all turned out so soft and delectable... I swear I would bake cookies for a living if I could. I LOVE BAKING COOKIES!
My gramma and I used to bake together and it was always the BEST TIME!
i had a hamburger tonight.
yesterday I had sushi and the day before that I had STEAK and potato and some dumb peachy icy alcohol drink. I should have ordered the blueberry martini! dont you hate THAT!?
I also had some sangria that tasted like your moms old perfume.
YUCK. I still drank it.
whatever this is boring. who really cares.
work has been FUN because its been so BUSYYYY!
if I am not ringing up the money spending shoppers I am tying ribbons on their packages and making friendly, nice and light chit chat. sometimes an old hag and her hag friends will come by and mess up the flow but I try to not focus on that.
I focus on the positive people with the cool vibes.
one dad was in the shop with his kid and he was telling his son to stop worrying so hard on the future and be here in the NOW and pay attn to the now.
I was like: DADDY! I LOVE YOU. TEACH ME ALL YOUR WISE IDEAS.
and yes. the messages are circling all around.
I like that shit. good dads and good moms doing the good.
sometimes I fuck up.
but we all do.
just dont drink and drive like some stupid idiot. and please stop wearing the UGG boots for the LOVE OF GOD.
and MERRY CHRISTMAS
we will be alright.

I AM AN ADULT WITH REAL ADULT SITUATIONS

that delicious chicken dinner was ruined to say the least. who the fuK knew?
you cant pour cold water in a hot dish without an explosion bursting in your face! I thought I have done this before and everything worked out just fine. It was more like kinda cold water. WHATEVERRR!!! I was sick and still am. Have been sick for like a WEEK, did you know? did you care? but today it ends.
I have the xmas spirit in me and I have to go take a shower now and then I have to bounce off to work like a big girl.
RAIN in predicted for today, tomorrow and the rest of my time up in this northern part of California and that means a BIG PROBLEM for my life. You wouldnt understand why because you live in your own reality which involves NON reality.
goodie for you and your shoes.

sneaky little devil

silly me took some videos of myself vacuming and sweeping. i will keep them in my personal stash. the trash can.
and riight now i am wishing for a saucy cheesy pizza slice to shove down my throat to fill the voids.
but i will settle for 2 nice big swigs of nyquil. maybe a handful of marshmallows? chocolate chips?
i am sick.
when is Easter?
I hope we never die.
happy birthday.

1 more thing
i received a notice about a certified letter and I thoought OOOOoo maybe something important and cool like money or some other cool information or doc but no it was some fucking nothing and I almost refused to sign for it.
i was all like oh yea no thanks keep it. bye. but no no I signed and accepted.
now they know I have received it.

I WANNA SEE SOME SNOW LIKE THAT ONE TIME

I work HARD at my job. after counting the drawer and turning on the music I take some pictures
do you and your eyeballs wanna see some of the merch for sale at the store that I am employed at?
I am sure you do so here ya go
some cool rings made out of glass. they break easy.
pretty christmas ornament made in nepal or somewhere
some little wrestling figure guys FROM MEXICO. I bought my son 2.
i like this ring. buy it for me? its 80 dollars and sorta kinda too big but it will work just fine,
do my hands look gross? do i need more lotion? or do all hands look this wrinkled and dry in photos?
I thought I had model hands but this photo makes me feel different. pretty ring though.
I would not put this on my tree. who would? nobody is buying this. It will end up on the clearance table. its FUNNY. the owner kinda keeps it hidden. I think they are like 15 bucks maybe even 24.95. pricey.
I would so totalllly buy it for you but I am BROKE.and the girl.
this one is acceptable for the treee.
be good.
so last night I had a dream that the left side of my neck was pierced with this BAR and it was stinging like a painful BEE sting
huurt so BAD
so i removed it. I was wondering why the hell I even had it done.
and I was driving around w/ some girl that I do not know but we seemed like good friends.
we were shopping.
just thought I would add that.
sorry if I already mentioned this to you earlier.
somedays it is very foggy in this neck of the woods
I find it pretty and peaceful for like 1o minutes then after the 1o minutes it starts to piss me off.

YOU SHALL NOT PASS!

THE ELECTRICITY IN THIS SHIT APARTMENT OF MINE IS ALL JACKED UP WITH ISSUES.
LIGHTS FLICKERING ON AND OFF, AIRPORTS ARE FRIED UP, CROCK POTS NOT HEATING UP, CELL PHONES NOT CHARGING UP AND THINGS LIKE THAT HAPPENING, so I hate it here.
Have I said that I wanna move back south?
SOON I will be back home,
cause home is where the heart is.
Work was ridiculously slow on this BLACK FRIDAY.
THANKS A LOT ECONOMY!
BROADWAY SHOWS ARE SHUTIN DOWN too. DONT YOU CARE ABOUT BROADWAY?
this dude I work with is soooo annoying. Saying "absolutely" EVERY 2 SECONDS to every dam costumer he interacts with.
"OH ABSOLUTELY THIS AND OH ABSOLUTELY THAT" and "HAVE A GREAT, WONDERFUL, SHIT YOUR PANTS DAY MAAM".
UGH!! PLEASE!
and not to mention trying to jump on into my sales.
he is SOOOO LAME! from portland OREGON he is and 20years young. and super skinny.
be real man and relax.
anyways whatever I hate when people annoy me cause i should be more grown up about that and be like whatev. he is just a young boy.
just forget i said anything. i love my coworkers and i love that little shop.
please dont fire me till later on...
I have been eating a lot of comfort foods like pie and gingerbread men and sweet potatoes and TRISCUITS and wheat thins w CHEESE WHIZ!!! and reddi whip.
why would I be eating cheez in a can? I must be feeling lower than low.
what up with that?

THANKS FOR JOINING US TONIGHT

hello all you exciting people on the internet. How the heck are you? Are you getting fat like me?
personally I have been baking cookies like some sort of gramma twice a week, and thats a danger zone activity
so
I tried to go to the gym this evening and the fucking place was closed.
According to the little sign posted on the door the gym closed at 3 pm today.
What for? Thanksgiving EVE?
That is totally uncalled for
and all the lights and televisions were left on.
Way to kill the planet and pretend to be open at the same time. I hate you.
I guess they will reopen on Friday or maybe they will need that day to rest.
so very annoying.
SO I was like fuck it and went to the grocery store where i purchased bottle o' BRANDY, reddi whip AND LIGHT EGGNOG.
Came home poured a bit, tasted a bit and discovered I really don't have the taste for it.
Maybe tomorrow will be feelin it and I can get all fluffy with it in my kitchen while putting the bird in the bag.

so far from mickey mouse but he doesn't even know I left

so you know that I have moved to northern CA but what you might not know that is I am not exactly loving it. Not completely meshing with the no cal vibe.
no cal vs. so cal that says it all right there,
i enjoy my job and my boss but the north part of it not so much and I cant exactly tell you exactly why that is. the people?
The sun? the air? is it different? I would have to agree that YES the air is breathable and clean.
yeah maybe it is me.
Me just missing what I know and what I used to do down south. Maybe its a combo of all the things happening, change of seasons, sun going down around 4:30, and the gym here lacks LIFE. I don't know but this feeling is not going away. its only been 2 months.
I am just saying this so I can look back on this one day and read this and see that NO I did not exactly love it at that point.
Will I stay? Probably not BUT what exactly will I do or WHERE will I go? Redondo Beach? I like that place. Will that be better? Will I ever like anywhere? Is Earth not good enough for me?
Lets see what I feel next month or two months from now. Things change by the second.
Tomorrow I will work for 2 and a half hours.
BIG BIG DAY.
Thursday I am creating a Thanksgiving feast for 3 complete with pumpkin pie.
is the economic crisis even effecting you or are you above that?

WHY

MASH UP YOUR HEART WITH MY SOUL

I appreciate leaves
I am always getting this urge to gather them up, put them in a box, smell them and save them forever,
then I realize that would be dumb and probably end up being a fire hazard.
Its just that some are so vibrant and perfect looking that I dont want to stop admiring their natural beauty.
Fall is prettty prettty pretty awesome
I have never been around so many leaves in my life and I like the crunchy noise they make when I ride my bike through them.
But leaves are not my life.
I have been sweeping a lot of leaves out into the streets lately and I like it.
Mindless work.
I also have been waking up at 5 am in order to get myself at the gym by 6 am and that takes a lot of dedication AND GUTS.
its all DARK at 5am but I love be up before the sun and seeing the sunrise
so crisp and fresh.
shit just remembered I am almost out of stupid coffee creamer.
I cut out my morning brown sugar.
USUALLY I add a teaspoon of brown sugar to my morning OATS but I ran out and figured fuck that brown sugar bastard,
I dont need those 15 extra calories.
I still love oatmeal.
Tomorrow is Friday and one of my big plans is to bake some chocolate chip cookies for some kiddos.
That is going to FORCE me to purchase some brown sugar.
and I am alll out of mustard AND CHEESE TOO! who runs out of mustard? that only happens like once in awhile so that will be a fun thing to buy.
I also need some fresh THYME for a chicken dish I am making that involves more oatmeal.

I could use some new socks and a little more cash.

what the fuck are we going to do? something that works.

I currently am DYING for a snack, like a cookie or a brownie or a SOMETHING. you know the wine is just not enough tonight. or last night.
THE other night I got beyond TRASHED and while crusin' along on my bicycle I CRASHED INTO A FUCKING CHAIN LINK FENCE. it was just wonderful. I have the bruises all over my body to help me remember the special moment.
Inside I was super PISSED about the situation.
A nice lady helped me up and asked me if I was OKAY. I said "yes" but actually the reality IS NO! NO! I am NOT OKAY please help me and carry me away.
are you ok!? REALLY REALLY OK?
no I am cool. i am straight.
I enjoy bruises and scrapes. that means I am doing something. makes me feel young.
stimulates me.
In the photos above you can see my NEW shoes. I love them and wear them everyday.
but dude things are so screwy right now.
BULLY for you if you don't notice
BUT NOTE THAT I KATHRYN FRANCIS FEEL IT.
I NOTICE THIS SHIT.
I am also praying and I trust.

smells like Christmas spirit

So tell me am I lame or what? blogging on SAturday night? Am I lame? HOW LAME DO I GET?
I am drinking too.
I have had three glasses of wine and TWO shots of tequilla.
what does that mean?
For foood tonight I had steak, corn on the cob, baked potato, and a spinach salad. YUM YUM
my son had a major fit at dinner COS he was saving his appetite for his fancy cupcake that was earlier purchased for him so guess what NO CUPCAKE FOR HIM. see how that works? throw a hissy fit and you get sent to BED.
Minus a delicious fancy cherry on top cupcake=life is a crazy bitch and you better act right.
being a good parent is hard work.
Human being children are even more STUPID and UNREASONABLE than humans being adults.
that makes a long story short.
on to my next thought, UH UH.....I guess I got nothing.
enjoy the photo of me and my unreasonable son.
I have to be at work in the morning 10:30 AM SHARP. WE ARE PUTTING UP A CHRISTMAS TREE!!!!
tis the season.

YOU CAN COUNT ON IT

A great Halloween 08! and Birthday 08! it was spooktastic.
my birthday dinner was on SATURDAYNIGHT and like the sillly goose I am I GOT ALL SILLY TRASHED before hand with some cosmos so I could hardly focus in and read the damn menu
BUT it was still very delicious.
I do recall some fried zucchini sticks with ranch, a vampire pizza and red wine.
all very birthdayriffic. good friends and lots of LOUD talking. THANK YOU EVERYONE.
tomorrow is election day and its gonna be BOMB DIGGITY TOO AND ALSO.
I think the REDSKINS LOST BIG TIME SO YEAH ITS LIKE IN DA BAG FOOLS.
oH and I forgot that election day is a Tuesday so I GUESS that makes for a TACO evening.
Tacos and vodka is what I will be serving.
talk to you later.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN MY FRIENDS!!

that picture of my butt is ridiculous. BUT I just couldn't resist. LUCKY YOU. make fun of me for being so dumb.
SO its HALLOOWEEEN and its rainy. GREAT. I do actually like it.
I ate some left over chinese food a minute ago. why o why did I do that?
we are gonna leave in awhile to head downtown for the trick or treating and pizza pie eating.
I have been having a silly love affair with pizza. ONE NIGHT around MIDNIGHT I ordered up a pie jus' for the fuck of it.
well, truth be told it was all because I was watching a movie and the people IN the movie were eating pizza so then I HAD to have some too!! if I see anyone anywhere eating pizza or a pizza being delivered I MUST RIGHT THEN HAVE SOME PIZZA OF MY VERY OWN COME TO ME. serious.
its like an addiction. who doesnt love pizza?
EVEN the WORD pizza makes me CRAZY for PIZZA!
and I like to say PIZZA PIE.
I like eggplant too!
so whatelse is new? the election is 4 days away. are you even gonna vote? or are you a loser?
I cant wait. I am gonna have a BIG ELECTION PARTY wth PIZZA PIE! I dont really know if I will have pizza.
what would keep everyone calm?
wine yes.
LETS not all forget about my birthday. here here 29!
I already received one card in the mail.
too bad you dont know my address.
OK well my message today is HAVE A SPOOKY AND SAFE HALLOWEEN AND EAT SOME PIZZA PIE!
p.s.
i got a job yesterday! at a radical little Free TRADE gift shop. i wont share the name with you. YOU might call up and tell all my secrets.
Free TRADE!

DRINK WATER FOR YOUR BODY

I LISTEN TO TALK RADIO! OK! and I read.
so obamas gramma is sick.
fuck dude. life is sooo hard and painful. man.
what is up with that?
why must it be so? Well my friends I will tell you why so listen up
its because human beings are the scum of the universe.
SCUMMY RACISTS DUMBFATHEADS.
i could use a joint. and wii fit. GET ME THAT FOR MY BIRTHDAY!
I am sick and totally TIRED hearing about that assfucker "JOE THE PLUMBER" OMYGOD IN HEAVEN PLEASE STOP ALREADY!
I swear to you I am THIS close to moving out of this country all together
oh sorry is THAT unAMERICAN!? well if PALIN/MCCAIN win I will do just THAT.
SOUTH AMERICA SOUNDS NICE AND EXOTIC. like me. we are MADE for each.
tomorrow is farmers market so that means INDIAN FOOOD fo' me.
2morrow is also KARATE
and a spin class too.
spinning class is sooo stupudly difficult. you so could NOT even hang.
when its over I am soooo effing relieved
it is the bestest feeling almost ever
makes it worth the trouble.
tonight I am drinking a chianti.
tastes just like merlot.
I have been working towards drinking a gallon of water a day, today I came REAL close.
what else happened today?
nothing unusual.
there is a hunchback living near me and I see him every now and then.
whats the deal with that?
I am curious.
and I am thankful.
I am thankful that I dont live in IRAQ, that I am healthy with all my healthy body parts, and that I eat lots everyday.
I am thankful for being ME.
thanks. this is wonderful.
ikea is right down the freeway. I love that.

YOUR REWARDS ARE READY FOR PICK UP

can you feel it? its in the air. feel it.
there is this sweeet store here in town that I need to spend some money in. I dont know the name of it. it's like over by that one diner around that one corner.
I thnk I could live in san diego. anywhere in CA is really SORTA fine with me. Well, I guess not anywhere. some places are just NOT califonia but yet still in the state of California. ya know?
the coast is where its at. thats where my heart is.
what am I getting at here?
OH NO! excuse me but MY DOG IS CHOKING! is she gonna throw UP!? I hope not. yick. she seems better. phewy. dont ever own an animal. they are gross.
OK now on with this fun blog show.
ben and jerrys ice cream is EVIL. I got this one with some fucking carmel stick in the middle and its fucking KILLINGME!
I only had a few bites but I can hear it calling to me EAT ME.ENJOY ME. GO CRAZY ON ME! and its all the way in the freezer. THATS how loud it is communicating with my brain.
PLUS I have almost finished a bottle of some tasty berry flavored WINE.
OH G-LORD that reminsds me of Friday night when I drank up the WORST wine ever MOSCATO or some crapshit
it gave me the mother of all stomach aches.
i was wishing for the angel of death to come and take me away from the cruel reality of human being life.
you should know along with the rest of the universe that I have NO health insurance right now!
what kind of B fucking S is that?
lets pretend you Mr.internets are my family physician for a sec.
sometimes I have really smelly gas.
what does that mean doctor? too much protein? an overindulgence of broccoli maybe?
HELP. no no no just kidding I am fine and NEED NO HELP. everyone has bad gas.

my birthday is coming.
I HOPE I HOPE I get a BEN AND JERRYS ICE CREAM CAKE! thats what I am talkn about.
my son started KARATE TODAY! he broke a BOARD and he was rewarded with his white belt. I cried.
should I get a job?
na i dont think so either.
here is a little political talk for ya:
Sarah Palins stupit robo voice better not dial me up CAUSE if she does she is gonna get fucked UP by my words
oh but I guess she wont be able to listen since she is a Robot.
I am sure I am on her do not call list. scared bitch.
I have had a lot of wine I better get some sleep.
Tomorrow is Taco Tuesday.

HEY!HEY!HO!HO!COLUMBUS DAY HAS GOT TO GO!

so looks like i did not live blog last night.
just thought I would point out the obvious.
My friends and I did however have some wine, bread and pasta with squash. It was DELICIOUS!
Maybe I will post that picture of me in the paper just not now. I am lazy.
the weather is sooooo beautiful today!
i went to the GYM AGAIN 2 day and took a class that involves a kookyBOSU ball. its weird, FUN and hard as hell!
I am sure it will get easier.
AFTERWARDS I took a POWER yoga class where they turn up the heat up to 80 degrees but I think that the instructor mustve forgot cos it didn't feel toasty in there at all.
I also rode my boke all over the place today.
right now I am enjoying some green tea and later I am gonna EAT SOME FOOOOOOD!
but what?
there was a funny but SERIOUS Columbus day protest going on the other day and its been hard to get their chant out of my head ever since!
catchy little thing.