Jake Blues

There he is. Our new pussy cat.
He is sticking his tongue out.
Whata PUNK!
No he is a sweet boy.

All I Really Want is Some Peace MAN!

What it all comes down to is I haven't got it all figured out just yet.

Just roll with it.
Just slide with it.
That is all.
Simple.
Easy.

Be relaxed.
Become calm like the sea.
But is the sea really all that calm?
Crazy stuff happens out there.
But crazy stuff is what keeps the calmness calm.
I guess.
How would we recognize calm with out the crazy?

Whatever! all I know is what I know.
And that isn't much.

Now I will go clean up some dog throw up.
Fun!
Just yesterday I was talking to that slice of pink girl, about pet vomit.
And I was thinking how my dog never does that stuff.
AND BOOM!
VOMIT FOR ME!
Give me a flipping break.

Do I not choose my own destiny or WHAT!?!

FILL HER UP!

I am hungry!

never satisfied.

more please.

Maybe I will have another.

Sure I will take one, Thank YOu!

Neverending PIT AM I!

Will anything complete me?

ha ha how deep.

BLAH!

I am just going to have some more wine and a D FOOK N LiCiouS Drumstick.

And I mean the ice cream not some nasty chicken leg thing.

Then I really should sleep.

Let my thoughts digest and such.

But i won't. I will just lay around thinking more thoughts.

But I have faith that tomorrow will be a good day.

Today was I good day.

What are the chances really?

SOmethAnG is FisHY

Monday

Crispy Cream donuts for late snack last night and now for early breakfast.

I eat so many that I start to feel the urge to vomit.

I will probaby just eat another.

tee hee

My favorite ones are the rasberry filled ones.

Yum.

But who wants to hear about my donut preferences?







I bought a hardy hydranga plant, that is dead dead dead. You can kinda see it in the background of that there picture up there.

I thought for sure I could keep it alive. It seemed so strong.

But sure enough its stay in my household was a short one.

I watered the darn thing what more did it need?



Just like the dead fish floating around my fish tank.

I really need to get that thing out of there.

The other fish may never be the same.

Pets. What a hassle.

Maybe
I should get a kitty.

Is There Anybody Out There?

I look for deep meaning in nearly everything.
I am hopelessly searching for some type of reason.

My Mom works in an amusement park.
And yesterday while at work, my DEAD ex-boyfriends twin brother approached her.
He asked is she had a daughter named KATHRYN!
and obviously yes she does.
I don't even know if I feel like typing all this information down.
But I will give it a whirl.

Ok. Lets see.
My ex- boyfriends name is Aaron. He died from a brain tumor.
Sad. Really.
We were not together when he died. But I did see him about a month before he died.
We took a drive together.
He tried to kiss me and even though it felt so good. I stopped him. Because I was in a relationship with Tim. My now husband.
So he died a month or so later. I am vague on the details.

Aaron was my first love. I put him through some MAJOR SHIT! Sure sure we were young and dumb and all that but there was some serious issues at hand. Trust me. I really fucked with him. But he was fine. He got over my bullshit.

SO. Where was I?
Yesterday Eric, Aarons twin brother pops in to the mix.
I always think of Aaron. Like 2 days ago I was talking about him with this "Dude".

My mom just happened to be in this store that her and Aaron used to work in together.
LIKE 13 years ago.
And Eric saw her , and kept staring and staring and then he heard her talk and was sure she was my mom.
So they chatted and then my mom called me to tell me this oddball story. At least I find it odd.
So I tell Tim and he is like, who gives a flying HOOT?! Well, I DO! I DO!
Ok. Then a few hours later my cell phone rings and it is Eric.
Very cool.
We talked. And said we should have lunch.

So. Now I miss Aaron. And realize how so much of my life is gone.
I have really no pictures or any of his drawings. He drew really well.
Amazingly well really.

SO many memories I have forgotten.
Eric commented to my mom how Aaron and I were really funny. And how we would work off each others wit.
I can hardly remember.
I can. But I don't.

So I write all this shit. But still nobody understands how this makes me feel. I can't even properly describe it.
Or put in words the whole story of Aaron and I.
And now this.
At this time.
At this moment.

ALIEN ART WORK

To me that looks like an alien peaking at me.
Drew is a SUPER artist!

If they told you I'm mad, then they lied. I'm odd, but it isn't compulsive. I'm the triolet, bursting with pride; If they told you I'm mad, then they lied. No, it isn't obsessive. Now hide All the spoons or I might get convulsive. If they told you I'm mad then they lied. I'm odd, but it isn't compulsive. What Poetry Form Are You?

Oh boy. Today is one of those whirlwind twister like days.
I don't know what the FUCK is going on. Everything is spinning and I am starting to get seriously dizzy.
Now I am not saying that these days are BAD days they are just hard to keep up with.
Maybe it is hormones.
I started back on the pill.
So whatever.
There are lots of excuses I could use
for why I can't get a GRIP!

Ok. On with it.
Batman was super COOL!
I really likee it.
And that Christian Bale is delicious.
I mean really.
I starting crying in a few parts of the movie and that really helped my EYE feel better.

YES! My eyes still hurts.
and I know why.
Like the cute little princess that I am, I decided that I want my eyelashes to be MORE beautiful eyelashes.
I went and bought an eyelash curler.
Used it and found it to be uncomfortable.
It didn't even WORK!
They looked the same.
Anyways.
I must have pulled out an eyelash during the whole process and now MY EYELASHES ARE REALLY PRETTY!

2ND day of school for my little child.
Very nice. Time just to sit around and wonder what the fudge to do.
I will see a movie!
Yes!
Batman Begins.
yes.

SOme people and I watched GO last night.
I LOVED LOVED LOVED it.
Well, I liked it.
Anything involving drugs, Christmas and lots of nudity really tickles my fancy.
It helped me in my process of trying to accept Katie Holmes.
And now I will watch her in Batman and FALL TOTALLY in LOVE with her!!!

I LOVE YOU KATIE!
See it has already begun.
Wierd.

DAMN.
I want to HATE her.
I want to HATE EVERYONE!
And sometimes I do.
But not today.
Today I am going to FEEL the love.
Spread it here and there.

Instead of my HATE!
I say "I HATE" all the time.
I HATE YOU!
I HATE HER!
I HATE HIM!
I HATE that thing over there!
I HATE being like that.

One person I know really seems to get upset when I say "HATE!".

It really is not a nice word.
It is a pretty strong word.


H A T E!

wow.

Not nice.

But honestly and truly there are lots of things around that make it easy to HATE.
But honestly and truly there are lots of things around that make it easy to LOVE.

Blah Blah now I am done here.

This post is dumb.

I HATE IT!