I am proud!

I am a Scorpio.
(Also known as "Scorpion")
My Horroscope starts like this:
" Scorpios are highly dangerous, even at a distance. They cheat and lie, live for intrigue, and take pleasure in destroying. " (Read more | Find yours)

Just a Ride

Hmm what should I say now?
Very nice day today.
We took a nature walk.
Enjoyable.
Now we are home and Drew is napping.
My house should be cleaned.
But I just don't wanna.
My refrigerator should be cleaned out.
It is pretty sick. But I am sure there are worse.
I'll start having a REALLY clean house when Drew is in school.
So I think.
When Drew is napping I MUST ignore everything else but MYSELF.
I am here somewhere.
I have noticed one funny thing about myself.
I talk to myself. ALLDAY.
If I am aggravated about something, something like a computer or other machine. I'll say, "Come on. Give me a break. Why won't you just cooperate. JESUS!"
WHo am I talking to?
OH! Or if I bump my head or stub my toe. Something annoying and silly like that. I get REALLY mad! And blame the entire universe for making that happen to me.
I need to take a chill pill.

Sweet Dreams is a Sweet Song

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I wanna use you and abuse you
I wanna know what's inside you
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Movin' on!

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I'm gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside
Gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside you

SO here is a boring post for you:

Umm today I woke up at 6 am.
Made coffee.
Read horoscopes. I read everyones I know because then I get a glimpse of "their" life. So I think.
Then I made Drew some pancakes and scrambled eggs.
Then we took a HUGE WALK! All the way to the park and back.
Then we went to Target and Trader Joes.
Then we went to Wendys for lunch.
Then we came home and Drew had a nap and I had a shower.
OH! I bought new make-up at Target. I got some that will make me look younger.
Line minimizing.
Then Tim came home and we started dinner and crud.
Orlando joined us for dinner and was 30 minutes late. RUDE!
And now Tim and Drew are waiting for me to read books. It is bedtime.
NOT FOR ME!! :))
We are all going to watch Heavy Metal. YES, I am obsessed.
SO WHAT!?!?!?!
Well, isnt that a fun day in the life of KATHRYN!?

Nutty Movies

So I saw SIN CITY last night.
I really liked it. I think it is totally AWESOME MAN!
But I do have to say it is very similar to HEAVY METAL.
And if I had to choose a favorite I guess it would be HEAVY METAL.
SO THERE!

A Day of Golf

I love spring, and I love my family.

I wish everyday was as nice as yesterday.

Jem, Jem Is Her Name!

Not that Jem.


This one.
"Save Me"

Save me save me save me wooh

I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh

Why would I think such things
Crazy thoughts have quick wings
Gaining momentum fast
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind
To a fake fantasy

And none of these
Thoughts are real
So why is it that I feel
So cut up and so bad
I need to take control
Coz my mind is on a roll
And it isn't listening to me

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh
(thinking and thinking)
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh
(thinking and thinking)

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh
(thinking and thinking)
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
Save me ah wooh
(thinking and thinking)

Ok so here we go
If it works I'll let you know
One two three I say stop

You Are 29 Years Old

29 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are Best Described By...

Under the Wave Off Kanagawa By Katsushika Hokusai

What Famous Work of Art Are You?

Horoscope

Quickie:
Something about this situation isn't right. Better get out while you have the chance.

Overview:
Talk about a big change -- it's coming, and you're ready. It happens, and you know it. Your best bet now is to think about the best ones that have ever come your way, and to prepare for it once again.

Extended:
You've been thinking about it for a while, and you're just about sure that this is what you want to do. You're ready to forget your job and abandon your routine. You're done, you're over it and you've had it with trying to pretend otherwise. But before you do anything rash, shouldn't you at least talk to an elder who's been there? Someone who can give you the benefit of experience? Yes, you should.

Can things be any more stupid?
SO tonight we are training Drew to go to bed on his own, without one of us laying on the bean bag.
I can't begin to describe how painful this is.
He just says over and over how he wants to give us a kiss and a hug and tell us he loves us. His exact words are, "but I love you".
So we are picking him up and placing him back in his crib. Without saying a word. I can do it. It isn't nice. But I can do it. I guess because I know it has to be done. Well, whatever.
I am wondering if it is even worth it. I feel like I am physically hurting him.
Maybe the pain of wanting to be with one of your parents, who you love and feel safe with IS just as painful as a broken bone. If only he knew that he will be fine. That he can survive without us. He would be ok.
SHIT I don't know. Parents. They suck. And guess what. I am one. A helpless, scared, self loathing mommy.
I have one. I bet you do too. Maybe you are one.
Ok. So far during the course of this posting Drew has tried everything his bright little mind could think of. At one point he said he had to go poop in the potty. Good one. And then there was the peepee diaper where he said he would just change himself. All done through deep, crazy, rapid breathes. You know the ones you would have when you were a kid. You couldn't even speak. Just air and noice would escape, like some sort of seizure activity. Then after things have calmed down you would still spend a half hour recovering. Still breathing abnormally. FUnny. I wonder when the last time I cried like that was? Hmmm.........
Ok back to DREW!! Probably around the 11th go round with Drew is where I found it hard to hold back my laughter and tears. He walked slowly out of his room and so I preceeded to walk over to him, pick him up, and put him in his bed when he very calmly said, "hi. hey." Funny. Hello little boy.
Ok. Whatever. I have turned this into something HUGE AND EXCITING!! Or not.
I could start all over and tell you that before this all began I spent about 45 minutes searching for a missing tiger.
Drew HAD to have it for bed.
I searched. I found! Hooray!
I am tired I can't go on.
Well, Drew is finally asleep. We did it. I think we shall live.
I wonder how it will go tomorrow.

Living Dream

The other day I told someone (not the person in the picture) that they are like a Bad Dream I can't wake up from.



Their response was "Not nice".

Horoscope

Quickie:

Something you thought was a fantasy is suddenly real. This is what you've waited for.



Overview:

Still haven't relaxed your grip on that travel-pack of tissues? Well, don't expect to get rid of it just yet -- at least, not for today. You really should enjoy the tears, too. By tomorrow morning, you'll be feeling quite calm and objective.


Extended:

You're not usually this sentimental, but for days now, you've been surprising even yourself with how emotional a Scorpio can be. It's good to allow yourself these feelings. Every now and then, even a sign as stoic as yours is allowed to do a bit of sniffling -- especially with what you've been going through lately. And if anyone decides to start kidding with you about it? Well, let's just say they'd better be brave, because they're certainly foolish.

The show Fat Actress is FREAKING HILARIOUS!
At least it was last night.
I just love, love, love, Showtime.
Another one of my favorite shows from Showtime is Curb Your Enthusiasm. I have all 3 seasons on DVD.
For some bizarre reason Larry David reminds me of my dad.
But a lot of men do. For instance David Letterman.
I don't know why. Maybe the dry humor.
WHO KNOWS.

So blogging is a problem for me.
I read these blog things and I enjoy them but I am judgemental.
GOSH I SUCK!
So I don't really blog because I automatically think mine will be judged. But who the FUDGE cares what I think or what you think?
Not me.
Ivedecided.
Yeah right.
Everyone wants to be accepted by others.
But sometimes I think that I really truly don't care. But then sometimes I do. How can I keep up?


Then I am always thinking of cool things to blog about and funny stuff to say, but I don't . Because I think WHO CARES what I have to say? Only me. So why waste my time telling you?
But here I am typing along.
And basically 2 people look at my blog. So I feel that I am directly talking to each of you.
And therefore giving myself away.
And I can't have that.
Silly me.
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