YOU SHALL NOT PASS!

THE ELECTRICITY IN THIS SHIT APARTMENT OF MINE IS ALL JACKED UP WITH ISSUES.
LIGHTS FLICKERING ON AND OFF, AIRPORTS ARE FRIED UP, CROCK POTS NOT HEATING UP, CELL PHONES NOT CHARGING UP AND THINGS LIKE THAT HAPPENING, so I hate it here.
Have I said that I wanna move back south?
SOON I will be back home,
cause home is where the heart is.
Work was ridiculously slow on this BLACK FRIDAY.
THANKS A LOT ECONOMY!
BROADWAY SHOWS ARE SHUTIN DOWN too. DONT YOU CARE ABOUT BROADWAY?
this dude I work with is soooo annoying. Saying "absolutely" EVERY 2 SECONDS to every dam costumer he interacts with.
"OH ABSOLUTELY THIS AND OH ABSOLUTELY THAT" and "HAVE A GREAT, WONDERFUL, SHIT YOUR PANTS DAY MAAM".
UGH!! PLEASE!
and not to mention trying to jump on into my sales.
he is SOOOO LAME! from portland OREGON he is and 20years young. and super skinny.
be real man and relax.
anyways whatever I hate when people annoy me cause i should be more grown up about that and be like whatev. he is just a young boy.
just forget i said anything. i love my coworkers and i love that little shop.
please dont fire me till later on...
I have been eating a lot of comfort foods like pie and gingerbread men and sweet potatoes and TRISCUITS and wheat thins w CHEESE WHIZ!!! and reddi whip.
why would I be eating cheez in a can? I must be feeling lower than low.
what up with that?

THANKS FOR JOINING US TONIGHT

hello all you exciting people on the internet. How the heck are you? Are you getting fat like me?
personally I have been baking cookies like some sort of gramma twice a week, and thats a danger zone activity
so
I tried to go to the gym this evening and the fucking place was closed.
According to the little sign posted on the door the gym closed at 3 pm today.
What for? Thanksgiving EVE?
That is totally uncalled for
and all the lights and televisions were left on.
Way to kill the planet and pretend to be open at the same time. I hate you.
I guess they will reopen on Friday or maybe they will need that day to rest.
so very annoying.
SO I was like fuck it and went to the grocery store where i purchased bottle o' BRANDY, reddi whip AND LIGHT EGGNOG.
Came home poured a bit, tasted a bit and discovered I really don't have the taste for it.
Maybe tomorrow will be feelin it and I can get all fluffy with it in my kitchen while putting the bird in the bag.

so far from mickey mouse but he doesn't even know I left

so you know that I have moved to northern CA but what you might not know that is I am not exactly loving it. Not completely meshing with the no cal vibe.
no cal vs. so cal that says it all right there,
i enjoy my job and my boss but the north part of it not so much and I cant exactly tell you exactly why that is. the people?
The sun? the air? is it different? I would have to agree that YES the air is breathable and clean.
yeah maybe it is me.
Me just missing what I know and what I used to do down south. Maybe its a combo of all the things happening, change of seasons, sun going down around 4:30, and the gym here lacks LIFE. I don't know but this feeling is not going away. its only been 2 months.
I am just saying this so I can look back on this one day and read this and see that NO I did not exactly love it at that point.
Will I stay? Probably not BUT what exactly will I do or WHERE will I go? Redondo Beach? I like that place. Will that be better? Will I ever like anywhere? Is Earth not good enough for me?
Lets see what I feel next month or two months from now. Things change by the second.
Tomorrow I will work for 2 and a half hours.
BIG BIG DAY.
Thursday I am creating a Thanksgiving feast for 3 complete with pumpkin pie.
is the economic crisis even effecting you or are you above that?

WHY

MASH UP YOUR HEART WITH MY SOUL

I appreciate leaves
I am always getting this urge to gather them up, put them in a box, smell them and save them forever,
then I realize that would be dumb and probably end up being a fire hazard.
Its just that some are so vibrant and perfect looking that I dont want to stop admiring their natural beauty.
Fall is prettty prettty pretty awesome
I have never been around so many leaves in my life and I like the crunchy noise they make when I ride my bike through them.
But leaves are not my life.
I have been sweeping a lot of leaves out into the streets lately and I like it.
Mindless work.
I also have been waking up at 5 am in order to get myself at the gym by 6 am and that takes a lot of dedication AND GUTS.
its all DARK at 5am but I love be up before the sun and seeing the sunrise
so crisp and fresh.
shit just remembered I am almost out of stupid coffee creamer.
I cut out my morning brown sugar.
USUALLY I add a teaspoon of brown sugar to my morning OATS but I ran out and figured fuck that brown sugar bastard,
I dont need those 15 extra calories.
I still love oatmeal.
Tomorrow is Friday and one of my big plans is to bake some chocolate chip cookies for some kiddos.
That is going to FORCE me to purchase some brown sugar.
and I am alll out of mustard AND CHEESE TOO! who runs out of mustard? that only happens like once in awhile so that will be a fun thing to buy.
I also need some fresh THYME for a chicken dish I am making that involves more oatmeal.

I could use some new socks and a little more cash.

what the fuck are we going to do? something that works.

I currently am DYING for a snack, like a cookie or a brownie or a SOMETHING. you know the wine is just not enough tonight. or last night.
THE other night I got beyond TRASHED and while crusin' along on my bicycle I CRASHED INTO A FUCKING CHAIN LINK FENCE. it was just wonderful. I have the bruises all over my body to help me remember the special moment.
Inside I was super PISSED about the situation.
A nice lady helped me up and asked me if I was OKAY. I said "yes" but actually the reality IS NO! NO! I am NOT OKAY please help me and carry me away.
are you ok!? REALLY REALLY OK?
no I am cool. i am straight.
I enjoy bruises and scrapes. that means I am doing something. makes me feel young.
stimulates me.
In the photos above you can see my NEW shoes. I love them and wear them everyday.
but dude things are so screwy right now.
BULLY for you if you don't notice
BUT NOTE THAT I KATHRYN FRANCIS FEEL IT.
I NOTICE THIS SHIT.
I am also praying and I trust.

smells like Christmas spirit

So tell me am I lame or what? blogging on SAturday night? Am I lame? HOW LAME DO I GET?
I am drinking too.
I have had three glasses of wine and TWO shots of tequilla.
what does that mean?
For foood tonight I had steak, corn on the cob, baked potato, and a spinach salad. YUM YUM
my son had a major fit at dinner COS he was saving his appetite for his fancy cupcake that was earlier purchased for him so guess what NO CUPCAKE FOR HIM. see how that works? throw a hissy fit and you get sent to BED.
Minus a delicious fancy cherry on top cupcake=life is a crazy bitch and you better act right.
being a good parent is hard work.
Human being children are even more STUPID and UNREASONABLE than humans being adults.
that makes a long story short.
on to my next thought, UH UH.....I guess I got nothing.
enjoy the photo of me and my unreasonable son.
I have to be at work in the morning 10:30 AM SHARP. WE ARE PUTTING UP A CHRISTMAS TREE!!!!
tis the season.

YOU CAN COUNT ON IT

A great Halloween 08! and Birthday 08! it was spooktastic.
my birthday dinner was on SATURDAYNIGHT and like the sillly goose I am I GOT ALL SILLY TRASHED before hand with some cosmos so I could hardly focus in and read the damn menu
BUT it was still very delicious.
I do recall some fried zucchini sticks with ranch, a vampire pizza and red wine.
all very birthdayriffic. good friends and lots of LOUD talking. THANK YOU EVERYONE.
tomorrow is election day and its gonna be BOMB DIGGITY TOO AND ALSO.
I think the REDSKINS LOST BIG TIME SO YEAH ITS LIKE IN DA BAG FOOLS.
oH and I forgot that election day is a Tuesday so I GUESS that makes for a TACO evening.
Tacos and vodka is what I will be serving.
talk to you later.