Monday, July 31, 2006

SHEEEBA SHEEEBA SHANG HABA HABA HABA LA

A very loud JET plane keeps flying by my house and each time it makes my heart stop.
when I was little and heard the term "brainwashed" it scared the crap outta me. I pictured like bleach getting poured on my brain. and knew that would sting or something.
i hope that plane does not go by again. I think I have a flash back of pearl harbor or something.
I can get a free a coffee today at starbucks!!!!
i just remembered!

AUGUST IS TOMORROW

YOu know when you can feel the change in the air? For some reason everything seems a bit different, a process of some sort. I guess cause I have company coming and my sons 4th birthday and August is just a crazy month. I feel it. so I will just acknowledge it outloud.
I will also say outloud THAT

George is for sures! for sures! for sures! MY VERY favorite BEATLE!!!!!!!! YES!@!!
HIM.
My mom once painted a picture of him actually.
I should sell it on EBAY!!
I have so much stuff I have to be doing right now.
I wonder if I will ever accomplish anything?

Sunday, July 30, 2006

TOMORROW IS MONDAY


I could blog about my entire night last night but that seems a little desperate and past tense.
and those are two things I dont wanna be. desperate or past tense. whats worse than those two things?
I napped my entire day away today. I woke up this morning on my upstairs couch in my underwear knowing that I needed to get in the shower IMMEDIATELY since I was on the floor face down in a couple of different bathrooms just hours ago. lovely.
so I got clean and went to church. that was great.
then I napped in my Grandmas tiny bed for about 2 and a half hours.
then I napped some more in various other places around.
I could go on but who cares how I got to this very point right now?
not me.
I feel great and have had a great day and I always feel great and even when i was dry heaving in toilets in the desert I was still feeling great and smiling inside feeling just great. and I was just fine with whole "feeling like death" thing because it is all just great. and it feels great and I take what I get and I feel great about it.
one thing really did fuck up all this greatness this evening and it is all because I was looking forward to a nice salad with some nice ranch dressing on it.
but the restaurant I ended up at apparently DUMPS AN ASSLOAD OF DILL IN THEIR STUPID RANCH DRESSING!!
I do not like dill.
it just ruined the whole salad.
A great salad gone bad because of an abundance of stupid dill.
who likes dill?
raise your hand and represent!
I HATE DILL!
but its ok i still feel great.
I wont let the dill spoil how great I feel.
I cant let the dill get the better of me.

that time Seinfeld calls KRAMER HOBO JOE on Seinfeld IS SO FUUUNNNNNNYY.
hobo joe!? ahahahhahahahahhahhahhhh
Seinfeld is funny.

put it on and do it right

It is embarassing how drunk I became last night. embarassing.
at one point I was dry heaving in the desert.
not cool but yet sooooooooo cool.
just kidding. its not cool.
dry heaving is very uncool. but it is sorta funny.
At least i was laughing throughout the whole process.
alcohol is dumb.

Friday, July 28, 2006

she will die

Static is scary sometimes.
DID you know that some people dont put their kids to bed at a reasonable hour? yes its true.
My friend that I will just call "Debbie" lets her kids run around all night till they puke and pass out. geez!
my phone just broke for good now. I blame myself cause one day I threw it and thats why it is broken now. I have violent behavior. sometimes. I think I also threw a coffee cup filled with coffee that same day. shameful behavior.
OH! there was drama at the gym today cause some girls are cruel heartless whores.
and I like started my period and had to run around the place looking for some help. it was like I was 14 again.
OH I flipped out on people at the STUDIO EATS thing at the local theater this afternoon. I was waiting very nicely and calmy for like 10min and then FINALLY my chicken strips made an appearance in the little window where the food comes out and it just sat there waiting to be handed to me. so I motioned to the dumbemployeegirl and she handed them to me very rudely and I said "thank you" and she just looked down and didnt say anything to me so I assumed she did not hear me! so I repeatedly SAID THANK YOU and then when she just kept ignoring me I called her A BITCH. and walked away. that was so dumb. then I said to the managermorongirl on the way back to my movie (already in progress) that the girl in the STUDIO EATS looked at me like I was A FUCKING IDIOT WHEN I SAID THANK YOU!!! the MISS MANAGER THEN ALSO LOOKED AT ME LIKE I WAS A FUCKING IDIOT!!!
god!
I hate movie people employees!
but actually it was all just really fun to me.
getting pissed.
FUN!
I thought it was funny.
but it would have been better if that bitch just would have been pleasant.
I was.
I am always very fucking pleasant.
always pleasant.

FUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNLOVE

You Belong in 1962

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

so much more happened that can't be repeated

my eye was pierced and it hurt and was pretty puffy and red but you and i went for a a drive to some old broken down amusement park and I wanted to take some photos of all the cool broken down rides but ofcourse you were not interested in that gayness so I got no photos. maybe next time i guess.
oh wait this was a one time thing since it was a dream so thanks a lot. i never will get anoher chance. well, maybe I will.the dreamworld is very unpredictable. but probably mostlikelynot.
please enjoy your day and think only good, positive thoughts of me.

the opposite of what I said is what I meant to say

mmmmmm I got some new "JAZZY Strawberries and cream DIET PEPSI stuff" and it is like a miracle of flavors. its like strawberry soda mixed with Pepsi. actually I guess thats exactly what it is. I also added a little vanilla vodka. but its good even without that stuff.
today I was crazy all day.
and I think i texted a few rude things to a few people on accident. well not accident. cause I thought I was being funny but I think that maybe that is a hard thing to tell over texted messaging. well maybe if I was actually funny then they could tell. so maybe I am not funny. just obnoxious.
I should just go to sleep and dream of wild cats roaming my house and getting murdered.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

remind me to drink more water, thanks.


i bought some shoes. 2 pairs. I am wearing one of the new pairs right now. I dont even feel thrilled about them.
they are cute and lok like something I should wear to a bridal shower or baby shower or some type of luncheon.
I dont go to many showers or luncheons.
I think I need to be on medication.
or maybe not.
I was just thinking the other day how amazing it is that I am NOT on some type of brain medication.
Once I was prescribed depakote. I think thats how it is spelled. I never even filled the prescription cause it just seemed all very sudden. and something about liver damage was mentioned.
I really dont wanna fuck around with medicine but sometimes I think fuck it lets dope it up.
bring on the inner peace.
but see I am already under the false impression that medicine will solve it all.
high hopes.
either way I am fucked.
but thats ok you are fucked too.
I am going to go do dishes and feel sorry for us.
and consider some serious action.

MY OWN ADVISE


i need to make some important business phone calls. and some other phone calls.
my whole internet/computer situation is goign to push me over the edge in a bit.
all these connections going on and they are all BAD ONES.
CONNECTION! DO YOU HAVE A CLEAR CONNECTION??!
CAN YOU CONNECT?
are you connected?
no connection.
I listen to the same songs over and over and over and over again because I like to.
My in laws are coming. soon.
very.
I need to go put some fucking makeup on.
can ya dig?

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

I walked out & forgot where I was trying to go!!!!


I am dehydrated and alI I have had to eat today is the following:
chocolate milkshake, vanilla extract, some popcorn and smoke.

is that true?
is that possible?
am I for real?

YOUR NAMES WILL NEVER HURT


I look like a scarygrossdevillady in that picture.
thats neat.

I was filled with the anger this morning right upon waking because I woke up to ants in my PURSE and basically in my mouth.
but that is an exaggeration in case you didnt know. I know how hard it is to believe that NOT everthing I say is EXACT and easily understood. so just like know that.
but whatever I woke up to ants all over my shit and I was PISSED but then I was not so i started laughing then i started to get mad again so i began yelling so from there I then shot myself in the head.
and now I feel lots better.
so I am going to the movies to see CLERKSII!
STONED!!!!

tie me up and call me Kathy

I am blogging because my last like 4 posts are just embarrassing and I hate my blog and I just like to add to it to make things worse. Making things worse is my practice.
so
David Letterman would make a cool dad or boyfriend.

yeah well.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

you can like it or not

I notice my face changing. like getting old or something. I try to walk around my house smiling, just to fight gravity. and because I need to pay attention to my face muscles cause I think that I make a lot of funny faces when I am not paying attn. but my face is just a big annoying bother. I wish I had NO FACE! just one big eye ball maybe with pretty lashes. do I wish I was GOD?? probably.
I bet GOD wishes he were someone else too.

SACRIFICE YOUR COMFORT


I think I put too much hairspary in my hair today.
I should spray it in my eyes I bet that would burn and feel so good.
ANTS were all over my kitchen this morning.
fuck ants.
they are dumb dog food eating assholes.

bitter at the start sweeter in the end

TIME TO POST TIME TO ADD TO MY BLOG! HERE! HERE IS ME AND MY PICTURE. THAT IS ME IN THAT PICTURE> THIS IS ME TYPING THESE WORDS> THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. THIS IS HOW I AM SPENDING A PART OF MY MORNING TEN OCLOCK HOUR. FOR THE PAST 2 HOURS I HAVE BEEN SWEATING MY ASSSSSS OFF AT THE GYM WHILE ALL YOU LAZY FUCCKS ARE SITTING AROUND IN YOUR LAZY HOMES EATING YOUR LAZY HONEY BUN AND SMOKING YOUR LAZY HASH OR YOU ARE AT YOUR LAZY POINTLESS HELL JOB THATS EVEN BETTER> BUT really this is a waste of my time your time and GODS time! I need to shower and CONTINUE ON WITH SHIT!!!!!! I AHVE COMPANY COMING AND MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO BE SERIOUSLY INTERRRUUUPPPPTTEEED AND I DONT KNOW IF ANYTHING WILL EVEERR BEEE THE SAME!! I HATE HOW TIME PASSES> I ACTUALLY HATE THIS WHOLE THING> SO BEAUTIFUL BUT TOO FUCKING HARD. YOU dont even get it.

Monday, July 24, 2006

A WHOLE NEW WORLD


UUUHHHHHHH ok i would like to purchase a rug. A nice normal, functional rug. not ugly. I guess I always ask for too much.
for a large portion of my day today I thought that tomorrow was Wednesday. but that is false. tomorrow is and will be tuesday.
I have some company coming to stay with me soon.
that means I better get my ACT together and stuff. but I won't. I will just BOOOZE it UP BIG TIME when and during my company time. just to carry on the tradition. Its fun to pretend to be a drunk. try it sometime. gets people all rattled and suspicious.
sometimes I notice people saying things that make no sense and I will wonder why they even bother talking at all but then they usually shut up and I start to talk and then I realize that I too make no sense and then I wonder why I even bother talking at all. so then I shut up. and then everyone is just quiet.

i wonder if it is too late to take a sleeping pill.

STEAL MY SUNSHINE

meet millie. she is half bunny rabbit half pussy cat.
she sat on my lap today and she really made me feel special.
also
I just consumed a banana coconut frapperoooccciinaccino thingy in 12 seconds FLAT!!
thats like a record or something.
I am amazing and should be in many talent shows to show off all my many super talents.
and
its hotter than a witchy titty today just like yesterday and the day before yesterday.
the clouds are making the days gloomy.
the sun and I are in a fight anyways.

SQUEAKY SQUEAK SQUEAKY


My ponytail is even getting on my nerves today. BUT thats ok. I just got rid of it.
It is toooooo HOT. MAkes me feel cranky and sweaty and GROSS.
and all my clothes bother me. MY skin is even bothering me. I dont feel comfortable in my skin.
and i cant sleep at night.
and and and and and and and YEAH!!
after I shower I know I will feel better.
i had a dream last night that I went to a lifegaurd training course and when I went to go sign in the girl told me that my lifegaurd name would be "HOT TO TROT" and I got super pissed and told her that I FUCKING QUIT!!
HOT TO TROT YOURSELF BITCH!
but then I left and sorta regreted the whole situation.
I was a real life lifegaurd when I was 17.
best job ever.
but thats all over now.
Now I am just a regular person.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

just blogging


i deleted my myspace and I still sorta feel a loss of some kind.
I have been maniacally turning off all things that use electricity.
I want to lower my CO2 contributions.
I feel bad enough.
I NEED MORE LANTERNS AND CANDLES!!
for the sake of my childrens children.
I obviously have been watching way too much Discovery channel
and drinking not enough wine.

i was gonna say soemthing about jesus but nevermind.

i bought a lighter the other day and was very excited about it.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

WHAT HONEY?

well it was a normal sunny summer day but I took a stupid NAP like a LOSER and woke up in some other dimension where there is NOsun but only wind, rain, clouds, thunder and lightning exist. I also dreamt while I napped WHICH is becoming reason ENOUGH NOT TO EVER NAP AGAIN. My dreams are all fucked up and they disturb my "awake" time as well.
this is terrific. I am going outside.

Friday, July 21, 2006

The pursuit of peace is our holiest quest

Did you know that JANET is going to be a divorce lawyer?
well maybe she will end up a different kind of lawyer.
But my vote is for divorce lawyer.
seems the most alluring.
her and I have been friends since like age 11.
she knows exactly how stupid i am.
and she still loves me.
no doubt that we will always be friends.
thank goodness.

COME AGAIN


holy mother of GOD it is hot and to celebrate I just ate like an entire bag of cheddar/sour cream chips.
Blah. now i should go and gag myself since I feel like throwing up anyways.
But if I am gonna resort to that type of behavior I might as well force down a milkshake too.
food is my life.

one of my friends bought me a smoothie today.

start your day off right and pretend its night


well I dont even care so I dont want to be around any bad attitudes. so if you have a bad ATTITUDE you should go join the military and leave me the HECK alone. My attitude is superb.
My Grandma very much so wants to take me to IRELAND and SCOTLAND for 15 days and I dont really know if i can.
My husband seemed really excited about the whole me being gone for 2 weeks idea.
I should just fucking go. My Grandma says I need it because she said that she thinks I am flipping out.
the thing is that she is catching on to that idea a wee too late. BUT then I remember that I have all these FEARS. you name it I got it. I fear to leave the country while the world is totally nuts. I am afraid to fly over the sea. what about me missing my addictions??
I am just a fuucking scaredy stupid cat. thats why I should go. OH and then the fact that I would leave my son for 2 weeks. I cant go.
forget it.
sorry.
but I can go to Florida.
maybe.
I dont know.
i shouls just stay stationary.
but my grandma is giong to die soon and really has an ache to travel.

sometimes I think about how everyone that I am around will one day not be.
people will move people will die and people will change.

i wonder how many typos I have in this post...

Thursday, July 20, 2006

THAT IS HIGH


how can you not think about it?
how exactly do you stop thinking about it?
I have no idea why I was thinking that.
I was in my kitchen.
starting to think about it.
you can't stop.
it is just there.
it is real and you can't stop thinking about it.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

THE GREAT HITMEN


sometimes I type stuff i am not so sure about and then POOF is disappears and then its like GOOD! i did not wanna post that anyways.
so my Grandma is certain we are going to be attacked by missiles and/or bombs.
WAR!! WRA!!! ARW!! AWR!
its enough to ruin your day.
I mean whats the point?
I am just ready and waiting for the robot wars.
I cant take any of the truth.
so I dont wanna hear anything else about current events.
I am ignoring all current events.
i never would turn in my current events assignment in history class.
such an easy assignment.
lazy me. I was too busy hangin w/ my gang
justkidding.
i would never join a gang.
NEVER.

i could really go for some sorbet!

CRAM IT! CLOWN!


I went to the grocery store AGAIN today. I was STARVING so I grabbed myself some fancysmancy bottled smoothy from some fancy cooler with ZERO intentions of paying for it. $2.99 is waaaay too much for a bottled smoothy.
i picked a strawberry one and it was very deep deep RED, AND THICK
I was sorta nervous that I may spill it.
I shopped and enjoyed the whole thing and when I was finished I shoved the empty container in my purse.
AND I GOT AWAY WITH IT! I STOLE! BUT! when I got in my car and looked in the mirror I saw that the RED SMOOTHY HAD STAINED MY UPPER LIP! I had a deep deep red mustache. real cool. someone could have told me!
JERK STRANGERS!!
I am glad I looked like a happy clown while grocery shopping.



some freaky peacock attacked a little boy at the L.A ZOO!

I am not my self

HI DORKS AND NERDS!
I BURNT MY FINGER ON MY CURLING IRON.
makes me realize what it is doing to my hair and it makes me wanna give up the whole act.
I should and WILL go to some thrift stores today CAUSE the maids are coming and I like to BOOK IT when they arrive.
cause I feel stupid sitting around picking my nose while they clean my house.
I have already listen to the same MADONNA cd like 4 times in a row. repeat play.
I have a whole dance routine worked out for the ENTIRE DURATION! I have been practicing for years.
wanna see?
toobad.
maybe I willl also buy a video game for my outdated XBOX.
and I want one of those new NINTENDO BRAIN THINGS for adults!!
it may be gay but I think they are only like 19 bucks or something.
I wnat a lot of things and I will never be fullfilled.
I think I need a blackberry too.
OH I need to remember to set up my EBAY ACCOUNT!!!
I dont do anything I say I am goign to do.
I just sit and type about it.
and run off and do all other kinds of stuff.
good to know.

why cant I spell?

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

call it karma


SO I am making shells and cheese and blogging AT THE SAME TIME!
I feel like I should shower soon.
I showered once today but maybe I should again.
I want to fill my house with lanterns.
i feel a power outage coming on.
A BIG ONE!
BOOOM! LIGHTS OUT!
so maybe my mom reads my blog cause she left a message on my machine informing me that I no longer have to do her a favor this week.
thats good news. I dont have time for any favors.
I have millions of things that i should be doing that I dont do while doing stuff that I wanna do without involving doing favors.
I really actually like doing favors.
just not for my mom.

I better go check on my shells.

I WANT A FIVE THOUSAND DOLLAR RING!

Photobucket - Video and Image Hostingwhat a dumb picture.

I have a crappy rental car and so therefore I dont want to drive anywhere.
The thing doesnt even have a navagation system OR XM radio!!

Monday, July 17, 2006

HANGING ON BY A THREAD


ARE YOU MUMBLING?
TALKING IN A LOW VOICE MAYBE?
CAUSE I CANT HEAR A DAMN WORD YOU ARE SAYING?
WHAT?!
EXCUSE ME?!
PARDON ME?!
I HAVE TO DO MY MOM A FAVOR THIS WEEK AND IT INVOLVES HER STUPID FLUFFY BLACK JERKCAT.
am I a BICTH for thinking that she can KISS MY ASS?!
sorry. its B.S!
she is b.s.!
ok.
thats not really what i wanna do here- Talk about my MOM.
someone invisible just walked up my steps.
I am guessing it is this guy named JACK.
CAPTAIN JACK PARROT.
he lives with me and is looking over my shoulder.
I SWEAR!!!!!!!!

i dont know sweet child of mine is playing right now and I remember thinking
Axl Rose was prettyy hot.
BUT NOW!?!? ogghGOD! he is just embarassing.
remember when he did that come back performance thing on MTV?
I was like MORTIFIED for him.
he looked stupid.
I never wanna look that dumb.

I FUCKING TORE DOWN MY DEAD TREE IN MY YARD THIS EVENING!
I just RIPPED the bitch apart.
HARD CORE PRUNIING.
I wanted to see if there was ANY trace of life in it.
it is so dead. dead dead dead and brittle.
a fire hazard.
tearing it down and scratching up my legs and arms and damaging my eye while doing so felt somewhat theraputic.
I could not help but find myself asking myself why I have the only dead tree in the nieghborhood.
I had to stop so it is still pretty much there.
but my point is that tearing down parts of a dead tree was lots of fun for me.
I wanted to finish but at one point it just became impossible.
I need a CHAINSAW! or and AX!
now that would feel good.

I bought a flavored cigar today its like baileys chocolate or something.
and I am about to go smoke it.
hopefully i dont puke.

what are we going to do right now?


Is it FULLY UN American or FULLY American that I paid $8 dollars a beer last night and I had 4?
at least they were 20 ounces.
and I used the porta potties like 20 times.
Beer like just FLOWS through me.
AND the People in my valley dony know how to move to music. so they just sit and watch.
so just me and about 10 other ladies in their late 50's really got DOWN. downtown.
BUT actually one time i went to a Phish concert and I did not move one inch.
i stood completely 100% still the entire time.
I wanted to move. I really did but I was paralyzed. paralyzed with fear.
it was fun.

GOD that would suck to to be paralyzed.
I read the paper today.
not good stuff all around.
the world is sucky right now. didya know?
well
A family from Canada was killed in Lebanon the other day.
they were on vacation visiting their family village.
they are not paralyzed. they are just dead.
they should have stayed in Canada I guess.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

CALIFORNIA GIRLS



i think I am wearing my new GOLD eye shadow to an excessive degree.
BUT I wanna really show off my glamour for the BEACH BOYS.
OH and UNCLE JESSE!!
he is gonna be there.
but by the time I reach the concert it will all be melted into my eyes.

it will burn.
we are walking to the park.
thats scary. I am afraid of being KIDNAPPED!

MY mom is TALKIN MAD SHIT and I CAN HEAR HER RIGHT FUCKIN NOW ON THE MONITOR!!!!
we have a baby monitor.
whatever!
ti kcuf!

Is it any wonder you are too cool to fool


David Bowie.
Weird man. but soooo doable. for me.
I have to shower
I am DILLY DALLY-ING.
I am going to be high in public soon.
BUT why would I bother to share that information?
It doesnt mattter everything is a BIG FAT LIE anyhow.
OK! SHOWER! NOW!

READ IT AND WEEP!


OH NO!! I just realized that I am a horrible piece of shit. just kidding. I am just in a not good mood. I felt fine and I went to church but then something happened. SOME arguement about eating out for breakfast and waiting for me to be relieved from church and long waits for A TABLE AND blah blah MAD MAD MAD GIRL. I am just a mad angry person waitign for any opportunity to release it.
OH! NOW!?!!? OK!@! RAAAAWWWWWRRRRR KILL YOU!
I stray dog wondered into my garage I was told. a KEASHOUND. I dont know if that how you spell it but thats how it sounds. and I dont care. ANYWAYS I saw this dog laying in someone elses yard and I thought that it was a spiritual doggy and wanted to steal it but did not THEN I WAS TOLD IT WANDERED IN MY GARAGE!!!!
SPIRITUAL!
that dog is mine.
I am goign to go search for it now.


bye and happy SUNDAY to you!

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Brief but nice



I LOVE JOHNNEY DEPPP MORE THAN YOU!!!!!
I wanna watch BLOW RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but I also wanna watch LEGENDS OF THE FALL.
I dont really think I have seen that movie all the way through.
I know that movie has nothing to do with JOHNNEY but I am just sayin'
and I burnt the fuHUCK out of my skin today.
It looks good.

WAITERS ARE LEAVING THEIR JOBS


I wanna seeTHIS NOW!!!
and I wanna go eat some food right now.
i should be sleeping but i cant sleep tonite cause I was creeped out by a creepy asshole dude in a pool supply store.
he poked the person I was with and he talked way tooo close to my face and he really ticked ME OFF!
and I threw my 40 dolllar purchase down and told him to fuck himself.
I will never return to that store again.
HIS NAME WAS d.J!
he should be fired! he is goddamn psychotic.
and afterwards i could NOT shut up about the whole deal.
but the guy obviously was a problem for me and made me feel VERRRRRYYYYY uncomfortable.

I do not like to hear songs that I like in the background of commercials.

Mississippi and Alabama are two very screwy states.
sorry if you live there.
must suck.

i made a delicious banana pudding.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Yes its a lesson and its based on my vanity


OH I know you and I are both equally excited about this.

a meaningless, irrational universe

i dont even know why I bother talking to myself. at night I think of all this stuff that I need to do. get things in order. straighten out my situation. get rid of all clutter. cut down on things. move forward on projects bkah balhdhakhd hnand hdibs kahnd and more. so much stuff I need to do in order to do what I wanna do. BUT THEN DAY COMES.
and dont do anything. I mean I DO stuff but none of the really serious get DOWN TO BUSINESS STUFF.
During the day i feel like I have plenty of time and will get around to things eventually.
but when its bedtime and its time to rest and do whatever it is brains do while sleeping i can't. I just think of all the stuff I should do during the day. fucking absurd! I willl just start doing all this stuff that I think I need to do late at night and I will SNORT COKE! THATS THE TICKET!
thats how I will conquer this cycle.
my life will be all better.
I willl sleep when ALL my goals are fullfilled.

POW!

I should have bought a new BAG yesterday since my current tote is not smart. everything falls out of it and it scratches my hand up when I am searching for stuff. and I stilll cant find my drivers license and I blame my tote. or the lady at my medical facility. I blame something other than ME! i take blame for nothing. I do NO WRONG.
I wonder if anyone would wanna go bag shopping with my this early afternooon.
I guess I am gonna get to see THE BEACH BOYS THIS SUNDAY!! thats prettty cool.

Oh and I have 2 zits on my left side of my face.
i really love that.
and find it a struggle not to pick them.
assholes.

I have to go now.
sorry.
more exciting KATHRYN information LATER!!!!
SO STAY TUNED!
SAME BAT CHANNEL! SAME BATTIME!