basically I have been taking so many pictures of myself that it seems to me to be obsessive.
I mean I have always enjoyed seeing pictures of myself.
well, at least the good ones.
I guess.
But I bring this up now because just the other day I started to organize my old pictures and stuff.
And I came across some not so pretty ones.
I mean some I liked but others I felt were hideous.
But whatever.
I found my senior ID.
Holy Fucking Moly.
I looked not so great.
I looked like a dumb bitch.
Really.
But that is ok.
When I was little I used to look at my baby pictures and stuff and cry.
Wishing I was still a baby.
I did this when I was like 6.
I WAS still a baby.
I remember asking my sister when I was turning 11 if that was still young.
Now I can look at pictures from my past with delight.
Kinda.
Sorta.
Its the pictures from the present that seem to bother me most.
The ones I take.
The ones with just me.
I look at them and I just can't see me.
Who the FUCK is THAT!?!
25 year old me.
Kathryn.
Basically I feel lost.
So it actually really bothers me to look at these pictures and it also embarasses me to post them.
But I CAN"T HELP IT.
It is like I am posting a naked picture of myself.
But obviously i am not.
obviously.
I have said too much.
i feel similarly. it is like a strange process of continual self-discovery and self re-creation.
ReplyDeleteIf you put any of those pictures of me with the weird bangs on the internet I am going to cry.
ReplyDeletehaha i won't
ReplyDeletewhat bangs? i wanna see!!!!! do you still have them, janet? or was it a long time ago?
ReplyDeleteOh good god. I had bangs that I curled and they would go crooked and it wasn't that long ago. I was 21. Kathryn had really short bangs at the time. It was bad.
ReplyDeleteI have sweepy bangs now. At least they are SUPPOSED to go sweepy.
ha ha ha
ReplyDeletei look like flipping MISS PIGGY in those ugly ass pictures.
I should post em'